Hold on to your hats people… I’m making a change. Well, let’s call it a trial change. You may notice that my blog looks different. I actually don’t like it when other people change the way their blogs look, only because it throws me off a little and I don’t like change. It’s uncomfortable and I usually fight against it. But here is the thing, even I was starting to feel like my blog was boring looking. I’m not going to go crazy and abandon neutral colors or anything like that, no way. But I feel like the new look is a little more visually interesting… AND thanks to wordpress, it’s snowing on my posts. How cool is that? Anyway, if the new look grows on me I will keep it. I think it will be easier for you all to read too.
So yesterday I followed a link from one of Poppy’s posts. (Thanks Poppy :)) Long story short, today I had an email/newsletter type thing that talked about doing something new or different. I guess I can cross that off the list for the day (see above paragraph). It talked about how when we do anything new or different we open ourselves up to seeing things differently, new ideas, learning. It made me think about how closed off I am in just my day to day life to anything new or different. I like most things to stay JUST the way they are…. but why? Sometimes change is threatening… even changing myself. I’ll explore that some other time. So the other thing I read about was journaling, and it gave some journaling prompts, one of which was this – “What I didn’t say out loud today…”
What I didn’t say out loud today was “that stings a little”. As I walked into Sunday school I was asked my favorite color. I didn’t have to think long, I said navy blue. Then the teacher tells me that we are going around the room, you say your favorite color and he will read out loud what this little personality test thingy says about what your favorite color says about you.
This is what it says about blue –
Blue is an emotional color. Blue stay inside themselves and do not trust people very much. They watch every move others make. Pale shades of blue show someone who wants everything in order. Their closet is immaculate. As blue moves to the deeper end of color, it becomes more moody and shows it.
People who prefer this color frequently use their emotions to make decisions. They are also easily affected by the moods of those around them. They sometimes expect you to feel down whenever they are. Showing signs of co-dependency, they need you to be by their side experiencing their feelings.
I know, it’s just something off of the internet…. but so much of it sounds a lot like me. It stings a little, but it’s not that big of a deal. I am easily affected by the moods of others, but I do not expect or want others to be down just because I am, in fact I prefer that they not be…. geez. I work hard on this blog to NOT stay inside myself and trusting doesn’t come easy. I am moody at times, so what?
Now that I think about it, I ought to do this prompt (“what I didn’t say out loud today..”) everyday, because there are lots of things I should say out loud, but don’t….