It’s been a while since I’ve written anything, for some reason the longer I wait, the harder it gets to write. I actually don’t have a lot going on except being extremely busy with the daily grind. Wake up – coffee- take kid to school – clean/errands/whatever – pick up kid from school- help with homework – make dinner – workout/walk/relax a little – go to bed and repeat. I’ve been keeping up with blogs I read but I haven’t been thinking a whole lot about ttwd. Unfortunately, sex and kink have taken a back burner lately to all things vanilla. Imagine my surprise when I get a text this morning from Brad saying I should be expecting some “aggressively dominant” messages. I wondered exactly what that might mean and thanked him for the warning. I’m not sure what I was expecting but at the first text those old familiar butterflies made themselves known. Second text, butterflies multiplied. It’s been a while since we’ve done this and I felt/feel uneasy and nervous. Brad’s not saying anything that you’d be surprised to read on any spanking blog, I am just not used to him being so..umm…forward. He also asked, sorry, strongly insisted that I call him sir. He doesn’t ask for that often and it feels so awkward to say/type it. It makes me feel vulnerable, but maybe that’s the point.
Then he said something that started to freak me out a little bit. (This is actually playing it’s self out while I’m writing this post.) I did the brave thing and told him that he was starting to scare me. What happened next was music to my ears, he said just what I needed to hear. He said that he understood why I felt that way but if I would just trust him he would take care of me. He doesn’t normally say stuff like that… so I am glad he did, it makes me feel safer.
He also said “good girl”, which never fails to send shivers up and down my body. That phrase is almost as delicious as a playful “bad girl”, don’t you think? 😉
I sure hope the kids sleep deeply tonight….