Thanks everyone for your comments (on the previous post). I’m still not sure I know what I am talking about. I do know this, I’m not concerned or worried about my response/feelings about it. No matter what we do or don’t do, it will be fine. It wasn’t a bad experience, just not sure it would be beneficial at this point to do it again. As Sara said, it’s good to experiment, try new things, grow in trust. I think that I am a person that needs to know about big things coming up. I don’t need to know ahead of time for any kind of maintenance or play, but new and big carry weight. I was overwhelmed, time might have helped, I just don’t know. On the flip side of that, other than new and big, I didn’t have a whole lot going on inside, I was in a happy and relaxed place before we started, I’m not sure why I expected any kind of emotional release, maybe sometimes there is just not one to have. I don’t know, something to think about. Kaylyn – same deal, I am not sure that any amount of prep would or would not have changed my reaction, but who knows. Greengirl – thanks, it took me a looonggg time to write (and even longer to publish it), and thank goodness for friends who help us work all these things out and make sense of them. Mick – it may be a while before we try that again, I’m not sure that either of us knows exactly how we feel about it.
I really appreciate everyone’s feed back, it helped me see some things that weren’t there before. Since I wrote the above paragraph Brad and I have talked about the last post and decided wait awhile before we do that again. It may be something we have to grow into, if we even decide that we like it or want to do it again. We’ll see….