Intimacy – stripping away your outer, more public ways of being and sharing your inner life with another person; radical, honest self-disclosure, trusting another person enough to share your deepest fears and your greatest vulnerabilities
When I think about intimacy between Brad and I, I can see that it come and gone in phases. Life can get in the way and at the times when it’s most needed are often the times that we miss the boat. There are times when I would rather tell a complete stranger how I’m feeling than him. I’d rather not risk being misunderstood or feeling uncared for or possibly rejection by someone who I am personally invested in. Not that we make a habit of those but our communication can be faulty at times. Rejection of your feelings or dismissal of your needs is painful. The past few years have been a wonderful time of growth and maturity in our relationship and we have been experiencing the rewards of that. Still, at times it can be hard to open up, to share when I really want to, it feels like rocking the boat. The walls build themselves if I don’t constantly work to level them. It’s hard work and I can get tired of it. It’s easy to be busy with family, with responsibilities, and fill my head with unimportant things instead. It’s easy to ignore the work and it gets in the way of intimacy.