I’ve been awake since 4:30 this morning, my mind is running a mile a minute. I must have been writing about 4 different posts in my head all at once and I couldn’t go back to sleep. It’s funny b/c a few weeks ago I was struggling to come up with anything. Anyway, this one seems to be the most important to me. It’s really a note to Brad, a very personal note. Why not put it out there for the world to see? Kidding… I have my reasons. First, I don’t have a problem sharing how I feel about him. Secondly, it has everything to do with the feelings and circumstances brought on by the changes in our relationship. Thirdly, this is my creative outlet and if not for this blog there’s a good chance I wouldn’t have ever written this. So, that said, you can’t say I didn’t warn you. If you do not want to read a super sappy love note, or rather a long series of statements, by all means, skip it.
Other than the verse this is an unedited and unstructured stream of consciousness. It maybe could have been done better, but I chose to leave it rough.
4Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7
When you are patient, it helps me grow.
When you are kind, it warms my heart.
When you are thoughtful, I am thankful for you.
When you are selfless, you inspire me.
When you are calm, it puts me at ease.
When you forgive, it frees me.
When you are understanding, I feel loved.
When you snuggle with me, I feel safe and secure.
When you hold my hand, I feel connected.
When you kiss me, I feel passion.
When you hug me, I feel warm inside.
When you reach out, I respond.
When you need me, I’m at your side.
When you hurt, I hurt too.
When you open up, I feel fulfilled.
When your angry, I feel anxious.
When your quiet, it makes me wonder.
When you test me, I feel confused.
When you push me away, I feel alone.
When I am anxious, I need you to tell me it will all be ok.
When I am afraid, I need you to wrap your arms around me.
When I am unsure, I need you to reassure me.
When I fail, I need you to forgive me.
When I make you happy, I need you to tell me.
When I feel sad, I need you be there.
When I feel frisky, I need you to spank me.
(Come on, you know I had to throw that in there.)
When you want me, I am all yours
When you ask, I’ll give you all I have
While I’m alive, I need you.
*hope I didn’t make anyone throw up just now 🙂