Well, it’s a big day tomorrow. Brad is having his surgery to try and fix the problem in his hip. It’s not too big of a deal, it’s outpatient. I didn’t realize how nervous I was until yesterday though. Two reasons, if this doesn’t work it will be a huge disappointment for both of us, and it’s always scary when someone goes under (anesthesia). I’m hoping today and tomorrow go by quickly so we can just get this over with. In the meantime, I’ve got other stuff going on with me. I really dislike conflict. I dislike conflict with Brad even more, and I really really dislike when he gets up in the middle of a conversation late at night and leaves. Over the years I have probably done that to him many times, retreating out of frustration or anger. It’s been a long time since that’s happened and I probably would not do that now. It’s very hurtful when someone just decides “Nope, not gonna talk to you anymore, goodnight.” I’m going through one of those moments where I feel like he’s being unfair, and I feel helpless to change it. I have nothing left to offer to change his mind. There is nothing left to do but accept and move on. I’m kind of angry about it, which only makes him more angry, and increases the space between us. This is not good at any time, but it’s especially not good right now.